still not gettin any...

I open my eyes I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why am I in here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I want to start this over again

So I try to hold on to a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
:(...

As Requested

hey lovely..its been sometime i update sumtin here..(duhh!!! wat a boring opening)
as requested by many ppl..imma type something here esp for u ppl out der..*(yea..u!!)

i ve not been doin much lately..yest after work,i went to e bay..took a stroll, breathing in some air and letting some air out too!! (keke!) saw lotsa ppl jogging..feel like wanna jog too..(in ma hse perhaps) sat on a bench..and look faraway..figuring out what buildings standing proudly at Raffles Place...i feel like cryin but not a single drop of tear drop or accumulate..oh my!! im stoning i gez.. haizzz...life...tell me wat is life abt? to stand and to fall..? to cry or to laugh?
to put a happy front yet sad behind..? to sacrifice? to help ppl up n juz forget abt e shit u havin? or to put ya happiness aside for others..?dis gal juz dun geddit...really..i damn fcuking dun geddit..
do i hav to give in in everything i do..? or making a fool of maself..n let love mistreat me..? wer's e love dat is built w trust? yea TRUST!! screw w love..stop taggin me..
everyday..i will laugh upon msning, chat on e fone or meet frenz..i juz laugh for nothing..sheezz...i juz wanna lead a simple life..work, help ma family up, settle down, watch e kids grow n rest in peace..
i gez being simple aint fcuking easy..aint easy..
i ve been getting weird dreams nowadays..
dreamt dat im havin a romantic dinner w sum1
i ve nvr ever thought having dinner with..
i dreamt dat i went tru a failed arranged marriage..dats scary man..
call me crazy call me dumb call me arse or wadeva shit.. i badly need it..
geeezz...
more n more of ma buddies serving dis ant size country.. lucky gals dun hav to serve ns..

ouh ya..afta dat..i met fiza..n we went makan at e bay..den we hunt for slippers at mphosis..
nice sia.. me n fiza bought dis black slippers n hisham did e paying..
hahaha..thx guys..next time if wanna go shopping pls drag me along..
kekeke..

dat thang...

sally n red yatie..afta dat thang..errr...09/07/05

haha..dis was taken in e train...thanks to e courtesy of shamy..me heading to town and yatie to kallang..
was tired actually..but promised ma poly mates dat i ll b joining e outing..
wahseh can really see dat im tired..see la ma eyes so dark..despite having e dark rings concealed..

mr policeman(herizzad)stand aside aite..im smiling.. ;p
09/07/05

its been quite sumtimes me n poly mates had dis outing..all of us been busy w our own life..
k lemme introduce..dis guy aka mr shorty (now mr policeman) aka Herizzad..
his 22 dis yr..ahh..he is also known for his kan chiongness...n slow eater n e berak gang..
owez bully dis guy..one of ma favs victim..kekeke...ouh ya..he's ma silat mate too!!
and afta e outing..dat ends ard 1110 pm..i forced him to send me home..how vicious...
abehden..dey story2 about fatimah rockers..den i live sumwere near fatimah's hangout siol.. seram akak..lucky! he sent me home..thx ijat...

on mission..oit mr medic(zul) dun sleep!!
09/07/05

aite..dis is zulhaizat ibrahim(22 yrs old) aka mr genius aka mr kena-force-to-do-ma-project..
smart fella...classmates for 3 solid yrs...wonder how he can tolerate all ma nonsence..
mr big eater too...now in army, doin medic...i still remember during project he did ma programming proj..u noe..im totally sux at programming..ma life saver..kekeke..
i like to hear wen zul sings...his fav "sekuntum mawar meghah..." bagha yg panas membagha..."
cute siol..haizz..r karat..penat aku train ko..kekeke..poor mamat oso one of ma victims..
zul aku mintak ampun mintak mahap atas segala kebulian yg aku did..
kua kua kua...

punch bag

watso farnie?? oh ma gawd..im showing ma fugly teeth..
09/07/05


next...dis is reza...another big eater dude...aka mangkok buah kedondong..
kaki dlm ade besi pon maseh kuat lari...23 dis yr..haha..stuck in army...now in sispec..envy his determination...same height as me...(im taller i gez) his ma tissue-paper...
i still remember at canteen..i was in ma most remorseful mode afta quarelled w ma ex..
paisey arrr..i actuali accidentalli cried in-front of reza...haizzzz...he den bought me tissue paper..
like a big bro to me n to e rest..tho he's small...ouh..ma punch bag too!!! he always called me mop la...can use ma hair to mop e floor..i can betcha dat he is actualli jealous w ma hair..coz he is hairless!!! wakakaka....one fateful day in sch he asked me stoopid qns..."asal eh aku suka tgk pompuan?" damn...i said la..."pasal ko gatal!!!! naseb ko tk gatal ngan aku..mati ko aku keje kan!!" kekeke... he's been single i tink for more den 4 yrs...i did ask him wats his criteria..he said," aku nk carik pompuan yg pakai tudong n pakai miniskirt" siao!! mane nk carik seh!!!...
hahaha...all e best instructor...

hottie mamas

hotbabes caught on camera...where? hotbabes?? kekeke

ahhh...ma mamasita aka hot mama aka jalan-senget-gal aka musliha(22 yrs)
we re actuali old but yoyng at heart...kekeke..ma lunch-time-buddy..ma problem listener..
owez der femme...she's huggable, gullible, sweet(ehem2) cool sista,smart, hardworking.,very sexy and e list goes on n on..good sense of fashion..mascara freak..kekeke..simple gal.. craps alot..last time she self-proclaimed beyonce now change to ciara...mangkos...she played hockey too!! loves travelling...too bad i cant even getta ma arse outta singapore to jb..now workin part time and study part time at SIM..haizzz...so smart..im so jealous...
miss ya muzzie...hope to c her soon...

sally n shamy..shade pinjem..keh keh..

heya!! dis is sharmilah aka tikuz aka missy-hyeina-laughter aka ma secretary..
haha...dis petite lady knew her since 2001..very need in her work..studious, hardworking, sporty, kaklar..once she laugh..its like a virus..we all start to laugh too..her laughter got stages u now..e seal lion stage, hyeina stage, e engine stage n e fatimah rockers stage... kekeke...ma secretary..owez remind me n e rest abt homeworks la, discussion la, anitin...ma operator too..can b a good organizer..we always share things..like who's e next inbox..kekeke

DA FANTASTIC SIX

Poly buddies..09/07/05

Hey!! here comes da FANTASTIC 6!!! i really miss u guys arr.. guys help ya fren here.. she need help..take dis burden away from ya petite lil vogue fren of urs..me!! me!!
kekeke..

at home

i was eatin..
i ate mee goreng...
got prawns...
suddenly i thought of wan.
usuali..
if we eat outside...
he would peel off e prawns' skins femme..
sucha baby...
or rather lazy...
always bullied wan...
sorry wan...
hopefully u doing fine...
take care of ya health...