Bunga Angkasa


Indah sinar sang suria
Merdu irama sang bayu
Tiada seindah wajahmu
Tiada semerdu suara mu


Lembut bayu membelai
Merdu burung berlagu
Tiada selembut belaianmu
Tiada semerdu kau berlagu


Keindahan wajahmu jadi sumber ilhamku
Suara mu yang merdu menghiburkan hatiku


Bertambah cahaya hidupku
Kau janji bersumpah setia
Walaupun ribut melanda kan bersama


Selagi masih ada sinaran mentari
Selagi ada getar di jiwaku
Kan ku korban jiwa raga
Demi cinta untukmu bunga angkasa


*im getting mushy here..ahakz*

wedding on sun

AS I VE mentioned on ma multiply.. imma update abt e wedding held on last sun 26-03-06

below is aniq ma lil nephew.. his mom aint in e pix coz we kidnap her baby for few cam-whoring session..bluek! beshar kan mata dier.. he dun luk like his parents but more to his atok..cik jali aku.. his 2 mths old i reckon.. e fav of e day..more fav den e pengantin..(pasal dorg g bertandang la) hehehe...



tgk bawah...feelingnye akak...step mak mak seh..ade tokoh tak? fyi, ni baju akak bought for mom...but end up aku yg pakai..ahahaha..share2 la ma... asyal muncungnye aniq...oh dia baru bangun la nyarrr.... aku kaco2...abeh asek tido aje...boring seh....*nak cubit*

and below are ma cuzzins n an uncle... shamali & me..next row are jinjin,fadli and uncle ijal..

oh ya...lets talk abt shamali... been a long time i ve seen him around.. his gf was around too.. jeling2 nampak dek... his mom cik jamalia... berseloroh w mom n cik poriah (sham's aunt) aka wak poh...dis wak poh kan..sembarang arrrr...suroh aku salam mak mertua...den i said..sape mak mertua noor? sape2 la..cik jamalia pon leh....siak aje...cik jamalia pulak joked w mom dat.. dia berkenan dgn anak ira (mom) *maaakkkk!!!! aku nanakkk!!* den cik, sham nye gf camne? cik jamalia: dia leh tolak tepi.... ape je...gurau tak agak2... hehehe... oh ya...shamali was ma childhood crush..since im in pri 5 till sec 3...fuyoo lama jugak eh.. alah..budak2 dulu kan selenger..tak mungkin la skrg nk crush2 lagi..akak da tua nyarrr... abeh si sham on e other hand dari aku kecik sampai aku da besar n hawtttt...tak abes2 asek kaco aku jer... kang aku bedal..men2 rambot org la, lempar2 tuala... bang oi!!! kau tu da besau k... tgk tepi tu.,..gf hang da jeling2.... but i miss ma childhood days....

sat 25-03-06,


met ma larling fiza as usual for lunch..sham, uncle n lil uncle tagged along...
den me n uncle went to wisma topshop coz i wanna get dis kinda jockey-looking-cap
but invail i cldnt find e desired cap...uwaaahhh... uncle tgk arrr!!! kite takde cap yg kite
nak...!! den den... we conquered the whole taka... we got lost sia... maklumla.. kite kan
orang kampong dari jurong.. i told uncle dat i like to see guys in bermudas n polo-T..and dis
uncle got himself a pair of bermudas n brown polo-T at e men's gigantic bazaar.. but u luk
kiut last nite...nampak muda seh...(gini aku kena tocang dua arrr)


at 1st kan pat boonlay..i wanted to go home..due to e unstable temperature n some cough..
i was so weak.. but dunno how..wen i stepped ma feet to town.. split second la nyarrr.. aku
tak perasan aku ni sakit.. hyper aje.. keh..keh... sakit ngada2 tu.. naseb ade uncle... *wink*
tapikan..akak so ugly n selekeh seh.. tak mekap tak ape.. i feel ugly dat sat.. but uncle owez
assured me dat i look sweet...*kembang aku* ahakz..

taking a rest... penat jalan... behind the fountain

~~~~~~~~~~~~

and gez wat....?????????

uncle bought for us dis couple's ring!!!!!

im so awwwwwwwwwwwwww to e max...

tapikan uncle...kate bespren!!

nvm abt dat.. mine is size 9 rupanya

and his name 'Ardy' was engraved on e surface..

again...im so e

AAAWWWWWWWWWW

25-03-06

nyp silat's 6th yrs anny

NYP SILAT 6TH ANNY ANNUAL DINNER @ QUALITY HOTEL 18.03.06

At e lobby waiting to be served.. gorgeous ladies of nyp..

sum are the silatian some are e mcgian (malay cultural grp)

introducing e hawt HOT babes..

eifa, ed, shamy & rena

*******

oh still e hawt HOT babes..

ed, shamy n eifa

need to adjust e red eyes arrrrr...

*****

ops...dis is not arranged in sequence..

in e cab on e way to fetch rena e babe..

kesian uncle ngantok... keep smiling bebeh..

*mish u uncle*

*****

wat can i say..we re one big pham!! most of em are e pioneer batch..

wic me n batch were much closer back den..rather den e newbies...

actuali der are more u noe...

*****

ma all time fav babe...

rena & aya..

take note aya aint an nypian..but she came to give us e support...

mahalo ma gal...

***************

overall, we had great time der...had a gud laugh over e

performances dat were being put up..

except for e food, e rest were awesome..

thumbs up for e 7 atey!

puisi

> Assalamualaikum wbr..
> > Buat istri-istri yang suaminya hendak berpoligami....boleh lah guna
> pakai puisi ni...
> > Buat suami-suami yang berangan-angan nak berpoligami ....tilik-tilik
> diri dulu hah....


> > BACA JANGAN TAK BACA OKIE ..........


> > ***Puisi Suami yg minta izin Poligami***
> > Istriku, jika engkau bumi, akulah matahari.
> Aku akan menyinari mu kerana engkau mengharapkan sinaran dari ku.
> Ingatlah bahtera yg kita kayuh, begitu penuh riak gelombang.
> Aku pasti akan tetap menyinari bumi, hingga kadang-kadang bumi terasa
> akan silauan ku. Lantas aku ingat satu hal bahawa Tuhan mencipta bukan
> hanya bumi, malah ada planet lain yang juga mengharapkan sinaranku.
> Lalu.. Relakanlah aku menyinari planet lain, menyampaikan faedah adanya
> aku, kerana sudah takdir Illahi sinaranku diperlukan diplanet lain...



> > > ***Balasan Puisi sang istri***
> > Suamiku, andai kau memang mentari, sang surya yang memberi cahaya,
> aku merelakan engkau berikan sinaranmu kepada segala planet yang telah
> TUHAN ciptakan. kerana mereka juga seperti aku perlukan cahaya mu dan
> akupun juga > tidak akan merasa kekurangan dengan sinaran mu...
> > AKAN TETAPIIIIIIII..
> Bila kau hanya sejengkal lilin yang berkekuatan 5 watt sahaja, jangan
> lah bermimpi untuk menyinari planet lain!!! Kerana bilik tidur kita
> yang kecil pun belum sanggup kau terangi.
> Lihatlah diri mu pada cermin kaca di sudut kamar kita, di tengah
> remang-remang pancaran cahaya mu yang telah aku mengerti...
> > Cuba lihat siapa dirimu... MATAHARI atau lilin ?


> > please lah...!!!

much relax for today..

i wld like to thanks ma buddie, halfish for few words of his advise..
i ve shd have heeded his advise long ago...
nvm..nasi da jadi bubur lambok...


i really hate ma temper...
i dun like to lose ma air..
i feel so ugly okay..
but i cant keep it till it rots all ma nerves..
yg dpt penyakit pon aku..
haizzz...


from now on..
i have to keep ma conscious clear...
dlm diri kite ada dua...
baik dan buruk...
kadang2 kebaikan itu mendatangkan keburukkan...
dan keburukkan itu adalah yg terbaik utk dr sendiri..
so, wic one will i choose?
wic path?
good or bad?


onli i noe...n God noes...


**************************************************


yesterday..
i met ma peeps..
met ardy followed by yatie n fiza..
had our dinner at banquet..
didnt eat much tho..
just share half of e kebab 'tempeh' w her..
chilled at coffee bean...
sham jumaat joined us...
had a good laugh ova e bapoks strories and
few ol'lame stories during our teen and attitude days...
whoah...
not tryna boast..
but we really grew.. mentally n physically..
more relax now..
yatie no more e angry gal..
fiza no more e lembek giler n less fickle..
me, do i change? oi fiza kau rasa aku da berubah tak?
tak tau arrr..SILA tell aku...kekeke...
hisyam pon berubah... berubah perot...
mak oi..perot tkle angkat...
kekek sampai kul 9...
had a lil talk w ardy under ma void deck...
thanks for understanding...
all e best to me n all e best to u..
i cherish e f'ship dat we hav...
u ll owez be ma sweet lil uncle...
*wink*


***********************************************

FUCKING FREN N FUCKING STUPID ME..

wad e fuck sia!!
wad e fuck!!
ct!!
wad e fuck?!!!
u tink i wanna snatch UR AZARD from u???
if i want to.. i would have done long ago!!
enuff of ma fucking problems..
dun add more....
fuck ma job..
fuck ma love life..
fuck dos bastards..
HATE ME ALL U CAN...
CALL ME A BITCH OR A WHORE IF DAT PLEASE U..
I HAVE ENUFF OF U..
U N UR AZARD CAN FUCK OFF FROM MA FUCKING LIFE...
im fucking sorry for ma fucking blog..
imma FUCKING RUINER MINE U...
being good..dis is wat i FUCKING GET...
IM FUCKING ANGRY AND IM FUCKING PISSED...

i dunno...

hi..

not updating much things nowadays..
too tired i gez..
tired w stuffs clouding in mind..
aint no mood..
aint no strenght..
aint no spirit..
aint no love..
aint no direction..
aint no smile..
aint no care..
aint no support..
aint no anitin..


im sorry to whom i ve created e sadness n loss..
wen u laugh alot..
u ll cry alot too..


dear ct,
trust me..
i ve nothing to do w azard..
dun tryna smoke again ya gal..
he loves u still..



dear ardy,
im sorry for e downfall
ade jodoh... i ll b in ur arms again..



dear ed,
i noe ya strong..
n pls help me goin too..
im weakening..



dear fiza,
all e best for ya future career..
dun worry so much abt me ya gal..
walaupon tak ok..
akan aku ok kan jua..



dear lola,
big HI to u..



it seems dat only e 4 of ya know e existant of ma fugly blog

ouch

jari baby luka...
takit tau...
uwaaahhhh!!!!

SIAK

AKU BOLEH SAKIT JIWA KERJA PAT SINI....
KURANG AJAR PUNYA BANGLA!!

...

ma sweetheart.. wat ya looking at? posing kape... hehe... dis was taken

afta e weddings...

i like dis pix..but not e wall..so off scene... keep smiling dude..

coz ya smile keeps me smiling too..

cya soon lovely...

oh ya!

thank u so much for e post sweets..

so e manis of u...

terharu akak..

thx wak..

the moments'

AwAk... Just 1Na sAy thAnkS kEranA Kasi kte pEluANg 2 love n b lOve BY u... Kte dA uploAD some of ouR picS 2GetHEr tau...

*CinTa MulA bErputIk*

*tHE 1st tiMe u sAy tat u Love mE*

*ValeNties' dAE..*

SemoGa ciNta YG kITe seMAi laSt tIll thE End of TimE k wAK...LOVe u MIss U MUAcks!!!

oh man...

dis really killing...
fri madness..
i almost lose ma bloody temper on that chi lady...
scram u la lady... bodoh kape?? tk paham english kape...
menyusahkan hidop org.. suka2 reject

arrggggghhhhhhhhh.........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ol' timez

reminicing d ol' timez..

d timez wer all d virgins running around..

teasing each d other virgins..

above was the class of 4e5..

ma classroom of bukit view

found dis in ma ol' diary..

wer i kept ma secrets.. eww..

fiza, rena, aya n yana..

ma percussionist..

2000 raya show..

yikes..

the not hot babe of sec 4e3, 4e4, 4e5 n 4n1

Grad 2000.. e unglamoured day/nite..

werby e following week we hav to sit for e sucky O lvl exams..

*period*

fuck those heads...

I ve not been sharing ma stress at work w any of ma family members, friends or peeps
except for ma colleagues and ma ex bf the last time..



now im gonna release some air here...
i cant TOLERATE it..almost zero..
the work load doesn't tally w ma pay..
they pay me peanuts for durian tasks...
dey got all the commission...
i get all the shits n headaches n migraines..
if any mistakes from me...
its all MY mistakes..
if its the heads' mistakes...
its OUR mistakes...
wer e hell is MY mistakes..
damn arrr...



progression of management seems blurr here...
i envy those who work under rashid...
they are well taken care of..
the work load are shared between them..
they get higher increment, more benefits..
n dey share the laughter..
anything rashid will cover for them...



me? shall not brag about it..
ma effort are not appreciated..
to think that i always keep ma ass down..
to think that i did not barge nor complain
when being ma stress level met its limit...



a big foreign customer ever came to ma boss office and told me straight to ma face..
that im so important to him coz im helping him up w all his export shits...
even those irritating bangladesh boss appreciate ma effort for their importance..
but ma own superior did not slightly take note of ma presence here..
i dun expect any big rewards..
but atleast have the initiative to boost up ma confident wheneva seeing me in stress..
not to talk behind ma ass... ass holes!
i pitied ma new colleague...
she is facing the same shits i face a yr plus ago..
she's much more experient than me...
coz dis is ma 1st job...
and to her...here in aikmoh...
is the worst she eva work at...
since i ve already been told about this..
then y am i still here right...
shouldn't i be joining e rest of ma poly mates..
who work as engineers now in few of e factories..
whose earning nearly 2k only for basic...?



im walking like a mad dog n dis office...
n next i walked like a zombie grieving in ma cubicle...
dis july... i wanna tender...
july the 15th.. i quit ma job..
as i will complete ma 2 yrs here..
2 yrs of headaches..



nevermind...
few more months baby...
few more months...
im gonna drag ma ass out of here...

shd i be angry or just laugh n ignore...?

Should I be angry or just laugh n ignore...?





i dun understand y those avid readers tryna diss about what the blogger had writen on her blog.. they feel the sting? and they simply reacted (melenting) unintellingently? or they are just paranoid.. if they were just to leave lethal or sounds like threatening words on the tag board, i gez it's still ok. but to call up and screw the blogger and her friend up i dun think its a good idea..
u can either leave the comments on the tag board or to ignore it (if u think the blogger's writing is crappy or childish).





if those avid readers that responded to the blogger's writes and feel the pinch, than i gez they must have been involved or somehow "terasa" like who ate the chilli will taste the spice kan....





if im the reader and if really the writing is about me and if IT kinda hit ma arse, i gez ma reaction will be..."ahh...buat bodoh la...org ni saje je cari attention.." or "alah....budak2 arr dekni... org da tkde hal lagi peh..nk kutok2 aku pulak...makin dilayan nanti makin dia tulis macam2 pulak"





apparently, they are stung tho... they think they are not wrong.. protecting their pride la gitu.. never did they think that..how on earth the blogger might have came up wic sucha harsh, discriminating (mebbe), insulting (mebbe kott) posts...? there's always a reason behind everything rite.. but too bad... i dunno what they used to think...





not only that.. some even tryna be a "fire stone" u noe.. so bad kan..
a good friend should calm the other party/ies down...
not to add salt to e wound...
in order not to brag or create another scene..
that good friend should actually use his intelligence, not his negative emos or thoughts..
tell me if guys nowadays are too sensitive? S.N.A.G aka sensitive new age guy.





having a blog aint privacy animore.. we cant even express wat we had in our daily life...
like wateva we wanna post here, we have to think how to soften the words..
we aint perfect.. harsh words tend to tag along the sentences..
coz we need to let out the mess tru writings.. aka blogging..
but some parties are just aint happy... TYPICAL!
so how are we gonna let out our feeling when we haVE no one to turn to at time we badly needed someone? another way is to pray to God.. solat...





yea...but we're just a normal human being....





so bug bears, wat u doin here reading ma blog?
not happy? dgn hormatnya, BUZZ OFF!!
or..u can call ma buddy to inform me dat sape yg akan dapat malu...




grow up la!

I just took ma flu medicine..
Im just preventing e virus from hallucinating ma veins n systems...


Hmm.. afta reading ed’s blog…
I feel like to pen down something in malay..
I dun want ma A1 malay to downgrade…(ceh eksen pulak)



bermulanya disini...
tulisan luahan rasa dan bicara...
emosi bermaharajalela...
tidak ku percaya...
bait kekata yang tidak bermata...
melebihi tajamnya si belati...
menikam jiwa dan hati...
(hmmmm..)



(how abt dis..?)
mataku berat memikul tangisan semalam...
dan hari ini dibebani kekusutan pelbagai tragedi...
antara sahabat yg keji mengeji...
bilakah ianya akan terhenti...
adakah bila ku jauh pergi...
ataupon apabila aku disambut Ilahi...
kupanjatkan doa...
semoga perbalahan ini berkurangan...
kupohon kemaafan dihujung jejari...
agar cahaya kelembutan hati terpancar berseri..
diraut wajah mereka yang kusayangi..


(na-ah-ah, na-ah-ah)

lalalalalaaaa.......

aint no pain when forgiveness is attained

BEEP - pussycat dolls

Ha, ha-ha,
ha-ha Ha, ha-ha,
ha Ha-ha, ha-ha,
ha-ha Ha, ha-ha, ha




[Will.I.Am]
It's funny how a man only thinks about the...
You got a real big heart, but I'm looking your...
You got real big brains, but I'm looking at your...
Girl, there ain't no pain in me looking at your...




[PCD]
I don't give a...
Keep looking at my...
'Cause it don't mean a thing if you're looking at my...
I'm a do my thing while you're playing with your...
Ha, ha-ha, ha-ha, ha-ha




Every boy's the same
Since I been in the seventh grade
They been trying to get with me
Trying to (Ha, ha-ha, ha, ha-ha)
They always got a plan
To be my one and only man
Want to hold me with their hands
Want to (Ha, ha-ha, ha, ha-ha)
I keep turning them down
But, they always come around
Asking me to go around
That's not the way it's going down




'Cause they only want
Only want my ha, ha-ha
Ha, ha-ha
Only want what they want
But, na, ah-ah
Na, ah-ah




[Will.I.Am]
It's funny how a man only thinks about the...
You got a real big heart, but I'm looking your...
You got real big brains, but I'm looking at your...
Girl, there ain't no pain in me looking at your...




[PCD]
I don't give a...
Keep looking at my...
'Cause it don't mean a thing if you're looking at my...
I'm a do my thing while you're playing with your...
Ha, ha-ha, ha-ha, ha-ha




You didn't know that no
Don't mean yes, it means no
So just hold up, wait a minute
Let me put my two cents in it
One, just be patient
Don't be rushing
Like you're anxious
And two, oh just two us
So try to get your (Ahh)




Do you know that I know?
And I don't want to go there




Only want
Only want my ha, ha-ha
Ha, ha-ha
Only want what they want
But, na, ah-ah
Na, ah-ah




[Will.I.Am]
It's funny how a man only thinks about the...
You got a real big heart, but I'm looking your...
You got real big brains, but I'm looking at your...
Girl, there ain't no pain in me looking at your...




[PCD]
I don't give a...
Keep looking at my...
'Cause it don't mean a thing if you're looking at my...
I'm a do my thing while you're playing with your...
Ha, ha-ha, ha-ha, ha-ha




[Will.I.Am]
Boomp-boomp, Omp-omp
Boomp, boomp-boomp
Boomp-boomp, Omp-omp
Boomp, boomp-boomp [Repeated]




[PCD]
Ooh, you've got it bad I can tell
You want it bad, but oh well
Dude, what you got for me
Is something I
Something I don't need
Oh!




[Will.I.Am]
It's funny how a man only thinks about the...
You got a real big heart, but I'm looking your...
You got real big brains, but I'm looking at your...
Girl, there ain't no pain in me looking at your...



[PCD]
I don't give a...
Keep looking at my...
'Cause it don't mean a thing if you're looking at my...
I'm a do my thing while you're playing with your...
Ha, ha-ha, ha-ha, ha-ha