Excited of Coz

This morning, im setting aside all the negative thoughts and feelings that satans are trying to seduce me with... and here i am feeling very excited, very looking forward to ma 1st eva wedding.. awww.. really! finally im able to feel happy about it.. its like a hobby now!! haha.. berangan here n der.. hope miss pimple dun pop up at its last minute ok.. pls arr kasi chance aku lawa sikit k.. haha...tmr me n hubby (ceh) will go for our fitting of wedding attires and b4 dat we will drop by joo chiat to collect our bajus for the gubahan.. wow!! wat will ma theme be? i gez most of ma frens knew abt it.. its DARK BROWN, BROWN & CREME. Go fig...


WOW.. adekah ia akan menjadi mcm ala2 roman wedding.. bangsa princess tu tgh tunggu dia nye prince in shining armor or hang tuah with keris kontotnye?? haha.. ok la..
just an average bwh blk wedding jer.. takde grand2 k.. but most importantly dat the bride to be pls pls dun fall sick k.. like wat i was during ma engagement time..

btw, ppl said im too young to get married... im 23 going to be 24 soon!! and ma mom got married when she was 18!! hrmmmppphhh.. oh prolly i look young la!! haha.. *sedetik berangan bersamaku*

Storming away

two more weeks
and here im drowning in the pool or mixed feelings
life is ridiculous sometimesits like a carousel..
sometimes u r in a high state of life
and sometimes u r so down n feel like dying to dig dat grave of urs..
dat inconsistent emotions wic led to turbulence of arguements
and all dat are killing me softly
patient is virtue
and
i still love you

That Unshined Dreams, maybe..

I was brought up in a simple yet strict family..
Thanks to my lovely parents for wat i am now..
Not that im good or pious..
But i generally noe wat ma senses are up to..
Im lucky to have a supportive family, siblings, relatives and grandparents..
I gez everybody is working hard in high enthusiasm towards my wedding,
I can see in their eyes how much they want this simple wedding to happen,
seeing me on e aisle with ma chosen groom looking great in wedding attires..
awww... great isn't it... but somehow along the way,
catastrophic matters striked in which seeing all that happy event is like a wishful
thought... im not sure if i can countdown happily and eagerly like
other brides to be.. hope this calamity is not for long..
Nevertheless, there are still few kind souls who had given me strength and hope to
continue this journey... It is very true that having strong faith is a sweet reward..