breaking down

I had a cyclonic-tearing-heart-breaking weekend..
should not spell it out here.. just a stupid internal issue..
no air no air... i am not sure of whether to give in or shut my world off from any communication with him
or just be a dolly...

if he thinks keeping quiet or ignore the issue is key to solution, i ll follow his way..
i ll keep silent all day long, entire week, or whichever is more or less or much convenient to his suit.
*tantrum inside*

anyway went hunting for raya clothings with mom and sis..
i am in control with laughters and acting cool as if im not disturbed by the whole things...
bought black mini-kurung for me self.. not in a mood have the same color with the other half...

*alamak wah bingit ni* i just need a simple communication about it.. nothing else...


ma practical session on saturday sucks...